I’ve been graduated for approximately 6 months and I feel like I’ve learned more in that amount of time then I ever thought I could. College is such a magical and safe place, plus the bills you pay in college compare nothing to those you pay in the ‘real’ world. In the time I’ve been gone from the Florida State University I have had my first real acting job, gained a greater respect for myself, and passion for what I’m doing that I haven’t felt since I decided that I wanted to pursue a career in theatre.
A career in theatre? What does that even mean? What I’ve figured out is that it means exactly what I want it to mean. If I want to be an actor, I can be an actor. How I am an actor doesn’t matter. If I want to do community theatre I’ll do it, and if I want to go for bigger jobs I’ll do it. What’s important is that I love what I’m doing. If theatre ever felt like a chore it is not worth doing. I think that is the thing I regret most from my time at FSU. So many of those assignments I did that I bitched about I would give anything to be doing them now. I would be doing them with a smile on my face too. Someone recently told me that means that I’m destined for grad school… I told them I didn’t believe in predestination.
Ohio was an amazing experience. At first it felt a lot like fat camp. Long hours, hard work, little money, little food; but eventually it felt like I was apart of a family. Much like all the other theatres I’ve spent time in and about. I was given an amazing opportunity to work with the children’s acting classes at Trumpet in the Land and I was asked to Co-direct the children’s show for the season. I got to cast something for the first time since I graduated and it was AMAZING. I will always have something in my heart for directing and casting. I love it and I think that the way I approach a text is very much like a director rather than an actor, but I could go on about that for many many pages.
Ohio was amazing for the people that I met and bonded with over a five month period. I became close with not only people my age, but many years younger and older than me as well. That I think is the one of most magical things about theatre, it eliminates boundaries and give people a common ground no matter what age they are. I will never forget my family and I will cherish the love and support they have shown me and continue to show me.
I learned the most about myself in the past few months. The most important thing I learned is that I’m a pretty lovely human being just the way I am and if that isn’t enough for someone then that person is probably not worth my time or effort. Unfortunately I had some of my most painful moments of my human existence in the last few months. You know those moments that you only see on lifetime or on that vh1 show tough love? Yeah one of those. I’ll explain the GWTW theory another day.
As for the future, I am hopeful. I have a part in a local production of THE WILDEST! Hip, Cool, and Swinging! It is a 40-60’s era musical focused on Louis Prima and Keely Smith. I am playing the romantic lead for the first time since I was in high school. That should be something right? I am reading again, writing again, and most of all I am thinking again.
Clever girl….
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